Love

What is LOVE?
How well do you know love. I've been searching for an answer on it. From here onwards every post i will be posting on how my love life goes. For the first thing i learn is how well you love her/he? as for the additional info, i was recently having relation problem  which cause me so much pain that me heart is broken to pieces so badly. My journey of love life begin here.

16 April 2011
On this particular date, it was Rave Party carnival for flip flop beach carnival at Damai Puri. At this particular date, i first saw her was taking a group photo with her friends near the toilet. At that time, she was soaking in wet shirt and jacket hence it was a cold night. Her face was full of energy and excitement. That time, i thought i could have chance introduce myself to her but it was inappropriate way to approach her. For a moment she disappear from my sight and that time i thought i have lost my chance hence i gave up.

17 April 2011
My chance came back after found out that the person i saw on the carnival night pop in front of me. That time it was through my friend facebook profile. As soon as i knew it was her, i straight look for her facebook using my facebook account and finally i found her. Without any thought i add her as my friend. Who knows, i accidentally saw her msg wif my friend on the phone. At that time i was about to sleep so i check her phone and number and the phone number she used is the same as the phone number she post on her facebook account. When the plan comes together, i get so excited and tried to save her number. Before i went to sleep, i tried to call her but in the middle of the calling i off the phone cause i find it was weird for me to call her out of sudden. That night i went to sleep after the call.

18 April 2011
At the early morning, i tried to text her and i was shocked that she replied me after i text her. We chat the whole day non-stop. That afternoon i suddenly receive a message from her saying "don text while driving my dear". With the sentence she replied me i was shocked but i try to stay calm by replying her "sure my dear". Before i was about to go home from work, she text me asking me whether "do i have any pendrive?" that she can borrowed so i also replied her by saying "sure, of coz got lo. y? u wan to borrow kah?" then she replied me " ya, can lend me?". I replied her "y not?" then she asked when can i pass to her? So i say "can i pass to you after my badminton around 8pm at food avenue?" she then replied "ok.". At that time, i was so excited to meet her in personal. I rush to the meeting point before the time and at that time i got a friend asking me for a chat regarding business so while i was talking with my friend i keep waiting for her. After a while, she text me saying she has reached and telling me that she is waiting at the thailand food stall. I walk to the thailand food stall then i saw her sitting there with a girl then i pass her the pendrive. Due to business plan, i can sit with her and chit chat so i make my apologies to her. A few minutes later, she leave the place and text me that she need to leave cause she need to bring her other friend to buy some stuff. That night after i went home, i text her who actually was the person who follow her just now and she told me that it was her cousin. she then suddenly ask me "y? u like her har. i introduce her to u lar." With quick answer, i straight away say" no lar. i juz asking onli. its impossible for me to lyk her." then she suddenly ask me: do u like me? pls tell me the truth?" I was stun by the question that she asked me so i replied her" yes, y? duno y i suddenly got strong feeling towards u." After that we chit chat about our life.

19 April 2011
The phone conversation continues and after some persuasion she finally accept me as her boyfriend. I was full of excitement and happy. Before both of us went to sleep, she told me not to online or chatting anymore instead go sleep directly so to show that i respect her i respond to her request. It was a happy afternoon when she suddenly ask me out for a lunch so i say i'll go pick her from her working place. After picking her up from her working place, both of us went to order food but at the same time i doesn't have quite an appetite which also goes to her so both of us decided to order a bowl of porridge and share. After our lunch, i sent her to office but on the way to my car, i keep telling myself to hold her hand since we have already start our relation but i does not have enough bravery to do so i just sent her to office without any holding hands or what so ever. The moment i reached office, i text her "i so miss u even we  have the chance to meet up but the time we meet up is too short" she then replied me with "lol" emoticon. After dinner, she suddenly text me that whether i wan to meet her up or not? so without any thought i say yes of coz. I went to pick her at her photo school academy. After that we went to meet her friends up at expert food court at jalan song. While waiting for her friend, i found that her head has a bit of feverish and she looks tired so i asked her are u sick? she the replied me "yes." After knowing she is sick, i went to 7 Eleven and buy some minerals for her to eat with some medicine. she keep refuse on eating medicine and keep snatched away the medicine. At that time, i was so afraid to lose her so i hug her tightly and told her how worry i am and how strong i miss u day and night but in the end she still refuse to eat the medicine so i stop asking her to eat as i manja her. After the meeting with her friend, we spend a little time at friendship park and at this moment both of us promise that we should give both of us freedom and love each other. After that, i can resist myself already by hugging her so tightly that i was afraid to lose her. That night, i told her i will definitely take care of you forever even in the next coming life. I will love you with all i had even it take me to sacrifice myself for u. Before sending her back to her academy, that is the first time that we both kiss each other. With the kiss she gave me i change my liking of her to loving her forever. This makes me i cant afford to lose her and i must treasure her will. Eventually time does not give us the opportunity to meet up too long so i send her to her school academy where she park her car there. At that night i suddenly check her facebook profile and found out she had the same birthday date as me which is 23 of june and mine was 23  december. she told me she was shocked after i told her so she went to check my profile. My feeling towards her gets more fire up and my missing her level get more higher and higher. At this moment both of our relation get more and more better. Before i went to sleep, i cant stop thinking of her and i cant stop myself cause i too miss her. This is the first time i had this kind of feeling whereby i can be so crazy about her and so miss her.

About a week later her parents know about or relation and that time she receive a call from his brother's gf saying that her parents know about our relation. At that time she just finish her photo shoot at her academy and his bro and his bro's gf would like to meet us at tarot cafe so we went there as per told. I was shocked when i saw my best friend, Jason Law a.k.a Jace Law was with her bro. Everything was like so coincidence but when i reached there her bro's gf asked me how long have u guys been together and i replied her by saying about a weeks already. The meet up was not long so i sent her back to her house. At that time, it was my first time to know where is her house and i was shocked of how near is my house and her house. Knowing that her life is an freedom life cause she is a free lance photographer i get mote excited about her cause i can get to learn more about camera from her hence i can have the chance to go different places. Day by day, i love her more and more.

22 June 2011
It was the most special day i had for her. Firstly, i had no idea of what present to give her hence i have no budget for the present. Suddenly she told me that she wanted to go to Hock Lee to buy gifts for his brother's present. As she was walking at the gift shop called Constance she saw her favourite pinky cute pig but she was sad when she look at the price so she asked me but i told her that i have no budget. At that time she was starting to get upset so with quick thought i tried to call up my boss which i work with him at his shop whether i can get my salary early and i was fill with joy that my boss approve it. While she was looking for a present i ask the sale girl to reserve for me and i told the sale girl that i come back in the evening and pay for it. When i reached her home with her brother's gf present she told me that every birthday she had is the same a boring birthday. I just smile at her and of course that just piss her off. After that, my boss called me up to collect my salary so i bring her 2nd brother and her neighbor with me to buy her present. The present was so pretty when it is wrapped with a pink color box. After buying the present i straight sent it to her home and hide the present at her 2nd brother's store room inside his room. I was lucky that she did not notice what i was doing if not it wont be a surprise anymore. Then i return to my home for a bath and a rest and suddenly she text me that she was at the same gift shop. She was complaining that the pinky cute pig she like was gone and has been purchased by other ppl and she was complaining that she just got her birthday money from her parents and wanted to buy it and its gone already. I then comfort her by saying well, maybe god doesn't want you to buy it and it is not faith to be with you. She then went home heavy hearted. Actually is was suppose to be a surprise for her but seeing her heavy heart i also feel so heart pain so i told her some hint about my gifts. I told her to look for a pink present inside the store room of her 2nd brother's room. She was shocked when she knew the pinky cute pig was inside the box and her feeling was so high and happy that she even ask me to come over during the night for her birthday celebration. Sharp 12 midnite and it was her birthday she fully open the present box. As soon she open the box she is so happy that she hug me and thank me for it. She even told me it was the most happiest birthday gives from a person. Well time doesnt give much to us so i need to get myself home before my parents worry bout me. I leave her house heavy hearted cause i miss her so much.

The McD free gift festive has arrive and she is interested in collecting all the color. The first color i bought for her is charcoal black. When the second color arrive which is blue color, i had no more budget to get for her and again i lend money from my mum just to get it for her. Im willing to collect for her with all my heart and love. The third color she bought it herself but the fifth color seems to be out of stock. I tried my best to find the color around the city by walking each McD that has in the town by asking is the color still available unfortunately still i can get it for her. I tried to ask from my friend but none of them are willing to give away too. Suddenly i thought of getting the color for during my trip to sibu hoping it would be available at the there but before that i does not have the plan to go the trip but in order to show her my love i folo my parents to sibu and hoping to get the color for her. On the second day of my trip at sibu, i went to Sanyan shopping mall and look for her favorite pinky cute pig hoping i can get for her ad finally i found it and without any thought i bought it with a cute box and wrapping. I have been looking for whole day at all the shopping mall but i cant get it but in the end i found out it. At that night,  my friend brought me to McD and i was relief when i saw the color is still available at there. When i was on the way home, i went to pick her first and the moment she reached my house i asked her to open her gift. She was excited with the small cute pinky pig and the most exciting part is when she saw the color that she has not gotten. Previously the fourth color is not wad she expected that i would buy for her which is the pink color glass. That particular day, during the lunch i went to McD at city area since the other 2 McD has run out of stock. I bought the pink colour glass for her and sent it to her office. She was shocked when saw i really brought it for her. Eventually i cant get the last color for her as it finished the fastest among all the color as it was the last color. It happen to be that on the date where she and her mum was about to fly to singapore we went for lunch at airport McD. As i was waiting for the queue i saw there are still left the last color and without any thought i bought it down for her. Her feels lifted when she saw it. Her 5 days in Singapore was like hell to me. I miss her every night every hour and every second. I was hoping she could get  back early.

A lot of sad things and happy things had happen to us but somehow on that day something went terribly wrong which cause our relation to end. It hard for me say it here but it was a pain for me. Even we had broke up for weeks i still miss her, i still care her, i still love her. Even she broke my heart badly, i still love her. Im sorry to leave the story hanging but i wrote this in tears. As i wrote i keep thinking about her and it make me so wanna back to her badly. I would like to make an apologies to any viewer.

In the end, I still LOVE YOU AMY. I never regret to begin my life with you. You  changed me a lot and i will never forget you.