sori for not updating my blog dis lately. been very busy with my final project. gosh. still thinking of wad to invent for my final project. hahax. anyway i wan to make an apology to everyone for not updating my blog.
my life dis days have been great to me even though there are a lot of stress. HOliday coming at least i can get up bad late and sleep late. wohoo... time to go for job hunting.
Saturday, 27 August 2011
Thursday, 18 August 2011
One fine day
Sori for the late posting. Kinda bz with my project lately. Been raining lately though and it the best for every to start listening to Bruno Mars - The Lazy Song and get on the bed day dreaming. though the weather is nice still i get some feverish out of it, reli hate it. After for quite some time, the thought still embedded in me, i just cant enuf out of it. Trying to learn all the mistake and trying to learn all the thing i shud learn for me no to repeat the same happening again in future. Somehow i make one thing in my mind is that, being left out in the loneliness in a sad way is the most scariest of my life and what i learn about me is im scare of being alone. The being alone feeling is so terrified that i shall not walk that path again. I try to stood up and trying to walk to path with bright light where i can feel everyone warmness.
If your reading this, im happy to hear from it but i reli hope ur hearing this coz the printed page juz cant come off from the binded book so easily that it's there forever. I try to learn to live the way myself are and trying to be strong. To all reader, live life to the fullest and cherish the person u dear and care for. When its gone is hard to get it back.
If your reading this, im happy to hear from it but i reli hope ur hearing this coz the printed page juz cant come off from the binded book so easily that it's there forever. I try to learn to live the way myself are and trying to be strong. To all reader, live life to the fullest and cherish the person u dear and care for. When its gone is hard to get it back.
Monday, 15 August 2011
The Unforgettable Memories
In every relation every1 has, there all had their own greatest and sweetest moment. Indeed this shall not be forgotten because when we are far apart we left with that image where we can still think back and smile at moment of time we have gone through. Its the most pain also when both are not in relation anymore though they still keep thinking about the memories. Good memories is good to be kept but it all depends all a person's will.
The moment of sweetest time i ever had with her is walking on the beach with her during the sunset, taking photos at the beach during the sunset, spent some holidays at damai, eating crabs, sharing the same jacket, watching movies, spent a day time with her a crocodile farm and so on. How i wish it could happen again someday. Been missing the time where we are together. In my coconut head, the brain keep telling me that " Where are you?", "When are you coming back?", "How are you cause i been missing you and worrying about you?" and so on. All these happening is like a routine that i need to encounter it as the new day come.
This is base on my experience where i still can deny myself that i still think about the memories of the time me and her been through and spent together yet it is the most pain when both is greatly far apart as compare to the distant sky and land. They feeling of missing the time we spent together is a quarters of miles away still its hard to reach for. Its been so long we both been apart from each other yet the image and happiness is still growing inside my heart. The feeling is like getting more burning day by day yet the fire just cannot be wash away.
The moment of sweetest time i ever had with her is walking on the beach with her during the sunset, taking photos at the beach during the sunset, spent some holidays at damai, eating crabs, sharing the same jacket, watching movies, spent a day time with her a crocodile farm and so on. How i wish it could happen again someday. Been missing the time where we are together. In my coconut head, the brain keep telling me that " Where are you?", "When are you coming back?", "How are you cause i been missing you and worrying about you?" and so on. All these happening is like a routine that i need to encounter it as the new day come.
I'll always love her. She carved out her piece of me that I can never get back and even if I could, it wouldn't matter because she has torn it to shreds. So now there's this hole that only she can fill. The thing is, I know she'll never ever fill it, because now she's off with some other boys and she forgot the way back into my heart. If only she'd call and ask for directions.
Saturday, 13 August 2011
Wednesday, 10 August 2011
Life to the fullest
Jenny was so happy about the house they had found. For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town.
She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze. How
wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon. There'd
be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy It's just the way she wanted her life to be. On the first day
of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be
popular and I'm going to be, Because I just got a date with the star of the team!" To be known in this
school you had to have clout, And dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem
stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date. "Well I just won't tell them the entire
truth. They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?" Jenny asked to stay with her friends that
night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right." Excited, she got ready for the big event But as she rushed
around like she had no sense, She began to feel guilty about all the lies, But what's a pizza, a party, and a
moonlight ride? Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, But the moonlight ride would have to
wait. For Dan was half drunk by this time. But he kissed her and said that he was just fine. Then the room
filled with smoked and Dan took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Dan was
ready to ride to the point But only after he'd smoked another joint. They jumped in the car for the
moonlight ride, Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, And
Dan started trying to make a pass. A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean
playing football.) "Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be
so dumb." With all of her might, she pushed Dan away: "Please take me home, I don't want to stay." Dan
cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast. As Dan drove
on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow
down, But he just got faster as they neared the town. "Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I
really went out for a moonlight ride." Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us!
We're going to crash!" She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden
went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, And heard, "call an ambulance! These
kids are in trouble! Voices she heard...a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in
the wreck. Then wondered to herself if Dan was all right, And if the people in the other car was alive. She
awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices
echoed inside her head, As they gently told her that Dan was dead. They said "Jenny, we've done all we
can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you too." "But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry,
Jenny, they also died." Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done I only wanted to have just one
night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, And wish I could return their families to
them." "Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, And that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you
please tell them that for me?" The nurse just stood there-she never agreed. But took Jenny's hand with
tears in her eyes. And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your
best To bid that girl her one last request?" She looked at the man with eyes so sad. "Because the people
in the other car were her mom and dad."
"DREAM AS THOUGH YOU'LL LIVE FOREVER,
LIVE AS THOUGH YOU'LL DIE TOMORROW"
She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze. How
wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon. There'd
be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy It's just the way she wanted her life to be. On the first day
of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be
popular and I'm going to be, Because I just got a date with the star of the team!" To be known in this
school you had to have clout, And dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem
stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date. "Well I just won't tell them the entire
truth. They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?" Jenny asked to stay with her friends that
night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right." Excited, she got ready for the big event But as she rushed
around like she had no sense, She began to feel guilty about all the lies, But what's a pizza, a party, and a
moonlight ride? Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, But the moonlight ride would have to
wait. For Dan was half drunk by this time. But he kissed her and said that he was just fine. Then the room
filled with smoked and Dan took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Dan was
ready to ride to the point But only after he'd smoked another joint. They jumped in the car for the
moonlight ride, Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, And
Dan started trying to make a pass. A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean
playing football.) "Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be
so dumb." With all of her might, she pushed Dan away: "Please take me home, I don't want to stay." Dan
cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast. As Dan drove
on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow
down, But he just got faster as they neared the town. "Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I
really went out for a moonlight ride." Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us!
We're going to crash!" She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden
went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, And heard, "call an ambulance! These
kids are in trouble! Voices she heard...a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in
the wreck. Then wondered to herself if Dan was all right, And if the people in the other car was alive. She
awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices
echoed inside her head, As they gently told her that Dan was dead. They said "Jenny, we've done all we
can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you too." "But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry,
Jenny, they also died." Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done I only wanted to have just one
night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, And wish I could return their families to
them." "Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, And that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you
please tell them that for me?" The nurse just stood there-she never agreed. But took Jenny's hand with
tears in her eyes. And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your
best To bid that girl her one last request?" She looked at the man with eyes so sad. "Because the people
in the other car were her mom and dad."
"DREAM AS THOUGH YOU'LL LIVE FOREVER,
LIVE AS THOUGH YOU'LL DIE TOMORROW"
A sacrifice love but in the end its just a lost deed.
There was a blind girl who was filled with animosity and despised the world.
She didn't have many friends, just a boyfriend who loved her deeply, like no one else.
She always used to say that she'd marry him if she could see him. Suddenly, one day someone donated her a pair of eyes…
And that's when she finally saw her boyfriend…
She was astonished to see that her boyfriend too was blind…
He told her, "You can see me now, can we get married?"
She replied, "And do what? We'd never be happy. I have my eye sight now, but you're still blind. It won't work out, I'm sorry."
With a tear in his eye and a smile on his face, he meekly said, "I understand. I just want you to always be happy. Take care of yourself, and my eyes."
She didn't have many friends, just a boyfriend who loved her deeply, like no one else.
She always used to say that she'd marry him if she could see him. Suddenly, one day someone donated her a pair of eyes…
And that's when she finally saw her boyfriend…
She was astonished to see that her boyfriend too was blind…
He told her, "You can see me now, can we get married?"
She replied, "And do what? We'd never be happy. I have my eye sight now, but you're still blind. It won't work out, I'm sorry."
With a tear in his eye and a smile on his face, he meekly said, "I understand. I just want you to always be happy. Take care of yourself, and my eyes."
You lost the love I loved the most, And I learned to live, half-alive
This is a song i find its content is very meaningful.
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Monday, 8 August 2011
Caring by Loving Her Dearly
The feeling i have now is like words that is hard to be describe. Not even a single can describe how i feel, how i care for her, how miss her i am and how worry i am to her. Too many happy sweet memories come pass my "CPU" and i was unable to resist it thus making the situation gone worse. I tried to chat with her but i failed and end up getting hate by her. Is it hard for people to forgive and forget. What is that make you so hate me. Whole day of class i was thinking of her even when i was having my quiz test. What a mess i am now? Can you tell me what should i do to keep ur hatred away? Tell me pls....
How caring a person is how he miss you and look after you. Not all boys will reveal their thought easily but some will try keep it up to themselves as they are low profile on it hoping u could get the ans too. What you want from us is also what we want from you. Nite by nite i cried out to God and i pray hard to him that she can see what i mean to her and how loving i am to her. There are many ways of caring but not all we learn it.
For one thing i keep this sentence to myself " no matter it was in the next life, i would still choose u as the only one in my heart and by that time i will hold on tight to you and stay on to you forever". Last but not least i still love you till the end and i have no regrets in loving you.
(Any viewer would like to give some comment pls do so and if you have any idea pls post up also)
How caring a person is how he miss you and look after you. Not all boys will reveal their thought easily but some will try keep it up to themselves as they are low profile on it hoping u could get the ans too. What you want from us is also what we want from you. Nite by nite i cried out to God and i pray hard to him that she can see what i mean to her and how loving i am to her. There are many ways of caring but not all we learn it.
For one thing i keep this sentence to myself " no matter it was in the next life, i would still choose u as the only one in my heart and by that time i will hold on tight to you and stay on to you forever". Last but not least i still love you till the end and i have no regrets in loving you.
(Any viewer would like to give some comment pls do so and if you have any idea pls post up also)
Heart Drop
Today when i was looking at her fb page, my heart drop and sink lyk the titanic ship. I was reli stun by the wall post.
Missing You
Out of sudden i juz woke up early today. it was certainly not like me. What am i thinking about? What am i missing for? Still i can deny myself that i still love her and miss her. It's been days dat i cant get a gud nite sleep. Keep worry about her.. As i was sitting in front of my comp the whole day checking my FB hoping i can chat with her online but it turns out the other way round. About noon time, my whole body just suddenly turn weak and when i think back i realize that i have not been eaten for whole days since last nite. Its was a terrible feeling thought but i don't seem the have the appetite to eat. I need to force myself to eat in order to move on the next day so i took some of mum's cook fired rice.
About 10 pm, i came back to the old place where me and her used to hang out at when were both hungry which at McD (Kuching Airport). As i was on my way back, i cant resist myself from visiting her so i turn into her house and take a look at her crashed car. Its was quite bad but i was glad that she was okay but i keep remind myself not to hang too long around her house. This will just cause her to hate me more.
At the bottom of my heart, i pray to GOD. Where are u my dear? I'm so worry about you. I miss you so much. I feel regret and hoping i could turn back the time and change everything in a short of time but when i realize it, its impossible for it to happen. No matter i took u how long to recover i will always be waiting for ur return.
To all viewer, it good to appreciate what u have now rather then losing it when u finally realize the gud site of it. Who might knows what is going to happen next? Neither you nor him will know what is goin to happen. When that happen it will be the most painful and regretful of our life.
About 10 pm, i came back to the old place where me and her used to hang out at when were both hungry which at McD (Kuching Airport). As i was on my way back, i cant resist myself from visiting her so i turn into her house and take a look at her crashed car. Its was quite bad but i was glad that she was okay but i keep remind myself not to hang too long around her house. This will just cause her to hate me more.
At the bottom of my heart, i pray to GOD. Where are u my dear? I'm so worry about you. I miss you so much. I feel regret and hoping i could turn back the time and change everything in a short of time but when i realize it, its impossible for it to happen. No matter i took u how long to recover i will always be waiting for ur return.
To all viewer, it good to appreciate what u have now rather then losing it when u finally realize the gud site of it. Who might knows what is going to happen next? Neither you nor him will know what is goin to happen. When that happen it will be the most painful and regretful of our life.
Saturday, 6 August 2011
Quotes of the Day
A love is not judge by the outlook but it is judge by how the person respond and love you.
A person's romance is not judge by how well the person perform from the outside but it is how well the person care and love you. Even a person is very creative which makes you thing that he is romantic person but we never know what he has inside him.
When a person is completely falling in love with you, his love is nothing to compare to the universe or anything. Besides, he is willing to be there for you and willing to do anything for you just to make you smile.
A smile on your face will brighten the boys heart. It is the smile that the girl gift to him which make his heart melt.
When we are remain in silent, it doesn't mean we are not happy but we are giving you a winning place and respect you as our precious one. What we know is, its pointless if we keep argue over a thing so its better to give and take to her. We would rather to take the blame even we know is not our fault and this is what we want because we don't want you to look so sad and gloomy about it.
When a person does not say how well he loves you, it mean he is loving you more than he loves he himself. This is because there is no words that can describe how well he loves you as he know he is in love with you forever. When he don't say he loves you doesn't mean he does not love you forever but he always keep to himself hoping you can find out.
A lovely him is shown by how well he keep everything to himself. This prove that your are higher position then him and he respect you as his love and dear one. When he is advising you, it doesn't mean he is scolding you instead is hoping you could change from the mistake.
Lastly, in every relation it is a must for both of them to give and take. Besides, trust is the most important in maintaining the relation. It need both party to cooperate and responsible in handling the relation. A real relation is not a game but its a life which both should get along well and loving each other.
A person's romance is not judge by how well the person perform from the outside but it is how well the person care and love you. Even a person is very creative which makes you thing that he is romantic person but we never know what he has inside him.
When a person is completely falling in love with you, his love is nothing to compare to the universe or anything. Besides, he is willing to be there for you and willing to do anything for you just to make you smile.
A smile on your face will brighten the boys heart. It is the smile that the girl gift to him which make his heart melt.
When we are remain in silent, it doesn't mean we are not happy but we are giving you a winning place and respect you as our precious one. What we know is, its pointless if we keep argue over a thing so its better to give and take to her. We would rather to take the blame even we know is not our fault and this is what we want because we don't want you to look so sad and gloomy about it.
When a person does not say how well he loves you, it mean he is loving you more than he loves he himself. This is because there is no words that can describe how well he loves you as he know he is in love with you forever. When he don't say he loves you doesn't mean he does not love you forever but he always keep to himself hoping you can find out.
A lovely him is shown by how well he keep everything to himself. This prove that your are higher position then him and he respect you as his love and dear one. When he is advising you, it doesn't mean he is scolding you instead is hoping you could change from the mistake.
Lastly, in every relation it is a must for both of them to give and take. Besides, trust is the most important in maintaining the relation. It need both party to cooperate and responsible in handling the relation. A real relation is not a game but its a life which both should get along well and loving each other.
Love
What is LOVE?
How well do you know love. I've been searching for an answer on it. From here onwards every post i will be posting on how my love life goes. For the first thing i learn is how well you love her/he? as for the additional info, i was recently having relation problem which cause me so much pain that me heart is broken to pieces so badly. My journey of love life begin here.
16 April 2011
On this particular date, it was Rave Party carnival for flip flop beach carnival at Damai Puri. At this particular date, i first saw her was taking a group photo with her friends near the toilet. At that time, she was soaking in wet shirt and jacket hence it was a cold night. Her face was full of energy and excitement. That time, i thought i could have chance introduce myself to her but it was inappropriate way to approach her. For a moment she disappear from my sight and that time i thought i have lost my chance hence i gave up.
17 April 2011
My chance came back after found out that the person i saw on the carnival night pop in front of me. That time it was through my friend facebook profile. As soon as i knew it was her, i straight look for her facebook using my facebook account and finally i found her. Without any thought i add her as my friend. Who knows, i accidentally saw her msg wif my friend on the phone. At that time i was about to sleep so i check her phone and number and the phone number she used is the same as the phone number she post on her facebook account. When the plan comes together, i get so excited and tried to save her number. Before i went to sleep, i tried to call her but in the middle of the calling i off the phone cause i find it was weird for me to call her out of sudden. That night i went to sleep after the call.
18 April 2011
At the early morning, i tried to text her and i was shocked that she replied me after i text her. We chat the whole day non-stop. That afternoon i suddenly receive a message from her saying "don text while driving my dear". With the sentence she replied me i was shocked but i try to stay calm by replying her "sure my dear". Before i was about to go home from work, she text me asking me whether "do i have any pendrive?" that she can borrowed so i also replied her by saying "sure, of coz got lo. y? u wan to borrow kah?" then she replied me " ya, can lend me?". I replied her "y not?" then she asked when can i pass to her? So i say "can i pass to you after my badminton around 8pm at food avenue?" she then replied "ok.". At that time, i was so excited to meet her in personal. I rush to the meeting point before the time and at that time i got a friend asking me for a chat regarding business so while i was talking with my friend i keep waiting for her. After a while, she text me saying she has reached and telling me that she is waiting at the thailand food stall. I walk to the thailand food stall then i saw her sitting there with a girl then i pass her the pendrive. Due to business plan, i can sit with her and chit chat so i make my apologies to her. A few minutes later, she leave the place and text me that she need to leave cause she need to bring her other friend to buy some stuff. That night after i went home, i text her who actually was the person who follow her just now and she told me that it was her cousin. she then suddenly ask me "y? u like her har. i introduce her to u lar." With quick answer, i straight away say" no lar. i juz asking onli. its impossible for me to lyk her." then she suddenly ask me: do u like me? pls tell me the truth?" I was stun by the question that she asked me so i replied her" yes, y? duno y i suddenly got strong feeling towards u." After that we chit chat about our life.
19 April 2011
The phone conversation continues and after some persuasion she finally accept me as her boyfriend. I was full of excitement and happy. Before both of us went to sleep, she told me not to online or chatting anymore instead go sleep directly so to show that i respect her i respond to her request. It was a happy afternoon when she suddenly ask me out for a lunch so i say i'll go pick her from her working place. After picking her up from her working place, both of us went to order food but at the same time i doesn't have quite an appetite which also goes to her so both of us decided to order a bowl of porridge and share. After our lunch, i sent her to office but on the way to my car, i keep telling myself to hold her hand since we have already start our relation but i does not have enough bravery to do so i just sent her to office without any holding hands or what so ever. The moment i reached office, i text her "i so miss u even we have the chance to meet up but the time we meet up is too short" she then replied me with "lol" emoticon. After dinner, she suddenly text me that whether i wan to meet her up or not? so without any thought i say yes of coz. I went to pick her at her photo school academy. After that we went to meet her friends up at expert food court at jalan song. While waiting for her friend, i found that her head has a bit of feverish and she looks tired so i asked her are u sick? she the replied me "yes." After knowing she is sick, i went to 7 Eleven and buy some minerals for her to eat with some medicine. she keep refuse on eating medicine and keep snatched away the medicine. At that time, i was so afraid to lose her so i hug her tightly and told her how worry i am and how strong i miss u day and night but in the end she still refuse to eat the medicine so i stop asking her to eat as i manja her. After the meeting with her friend, we spend a little time at friendship park and at this moment both of us promise that we should give both of us freedom and love each other. After that, i can resist myself already by hugging her so tightly that i was afraid to lose her. That night, i told her i will definitely take care of you forever even in the next coming life. I will love you with all i had even it take me to sacrifice myself for u. Before sending her back to her academy, that is the first time that we both kiss each other. With the kiss she gave me i change my liking of her to loving her forever. This makes me i cant afford to lose her and i must treasure her will. Eventually time does not give us the opportunity to meet up too long so i send her to her school academy where she park her car there. At that night i suddenly check her facebook profile and found out she had the same birthday date as me which is 23 of june and mine was 23 december. she told me she was shocked after i told her so she went to check my profile. My feeling towards her gets more fire up and my missing her level get more higher and higher. At this moment both of our relation get more and more better. Before i went to sleep, i cant stop thinking of her and i cant stop myself cause i too miss her. This is the first time i had this kind of feeling whereby i can be so crazy about her and so miss her.
About a week later her parents know about or relation and that time she receive a call from his brother's gf saying that her parents know about our relation. At that time she just finish her photo shoot at her academy and his bro and his bro's gf would like to meet us at tarot cafe so we went there as per told. I was shocked when i saw my best friend, Jason Law a.k.a Jace Law was with her bro. Everything was like so coincidence but when i reached there her bro's gf asked me how long have u guys been together and i replied her by saying about a weeks already. The meet up was not long so i sent her back to her house. At that time, it was my first time to know where is her house and i was shocked of how near is my house and her house. Knowing that her life is an freedom life cause she is a free lance photographer i get mote excited about her cause i can get to learn more about camera from her hence i can have the chance to go different places. Day by day, i love her more and more.
22 June 2011
It was the most special day i had for her. Firstly, i had no idea of what present to give her hence i have no budget for the present. Suddenly she told me that she wanted to go to Hock Lee to buy gifts for his brother's present. As she was walking at the gift shop called Constance she saw her favourite pinky cute pig but she was sad when she look at the price so she asked me but i told her that i have no budget. At that time she was starting to get upset so with quick thought i tried to call up my boss which i work with him at his shop whether i can get my salary early and i was fill with joy that my boss approve it. While she was looking for a present i ask the sale girl to reserve for me and i told the sale girl that i come back in the evening and pay for it. When i reached her home with her brother's gf present she told me that every birthday she had is the same a boring birthday. I just smile at her and of course that just piss her off. After that, my boss called me up to collect my salary so i bring her 2nd brother and her neighbor with me to buy her present. The present was so pretty when it is wrapped with a pink color box. After buying the present i straight sent it to her home and hide the present at her 2nd brother's store room inside his room. I was lucky that she did not notice what i was doing if not it wont be a surprise anymore. Then i return to my home for a bath and a rest and suddenly she text me that she was at the same gift shop. She was complaining that the pinky cute pig she like was gone and has been purchased by other ppl and she was complaining that she just got her birthday money from her parents and wanted to buy it and its gone already. I then comfort her by saying well, maybe god doesn't want you to buy it and it is not faith to be with you. She then went home heavy hearted. Actually is was suppose to be a surprise for her but seeing her heavy heart i also feel so heart pain so i told her some hint about my gifts. I told her to look for a pink present inside the store room of her 2nd brother's room. She was shocked when she knew the pinky cute pig was inside the box and her feeling was so high and happy that she even ask me to come over during the night for her birthday celebration. Sharp 12 midnite and it was her birthday she fully open the present box. As soon she open the box she is so happy that she hug me and thank me for it. She even told me it was the most happiest birthday gives from a person. Well time doesnt give much to us so i need to get myself home before my parents worry bout me. I leave her house heavy hearted cause i miss her so much.
The McD free gift festive has arrive and she is interested in collecting all the color. The first color i bought for her is charcoal black. When the second color arrive which is blue color, i had no more budget to get for her and again i lend money from my mum just to get it for her. Im willing to collect for her with all my heart and love. The third color she bought it herself but the fifth color seems to be out of stock. I tried my best to find the color around the city by walking each McD that has in the town by asking is the color still available unfortunately still i can get it for her. I tried to ask from my friend but none of them are willing to give away too. Suddenly i thought of getting the color for during my trip to sibu hoping it would be available at the there but before that i does not have the plan to go the trip but in order to show her my love i folo my parents to sibu and hoping to get the color for her. On the second day of my trip at sibu, i went to Sanyan shopping mall and look for her favorite pinky cute pig hoping i can get for her ad finally i found it and without any thought i bought it with a cute box and wrapping. I have been looking for whole day at all the shopping mall but i cant get it but in the end i found out it. At that night, my friend brought me to McD and i was relief when i saw the color is still available at there. When i was on the way home, i went to pick her first and the moment she reached my house i asked her to open her gift. She was excited with the small cute pinky pig and the most exciting part is when she saw the color that she has not gotten. Previously the fourth color is not wad she expected that i would buy for her which is the pink color glass. That particular day, during the lunch i went to McD at city area since the other 2 McD has run out of stock. I bought the pink colour glass for her and sent it to her office. She was shocked when saw i really brought it for her. Eventually i cant get the last color for her as it finished the fastest among all the color as it was the last color. It happen to be that on the date where she and her mum was about to fly to singapore we went for lunch at airport McD. As i was waiting for the queue i saw there are still left the last color and without any thought i bought it down for her. Her feels lifted when she saw it. Her 5 days in Singapore was like hell to me. I miss her every night every hour and every second. I was hoping she could get back early.
A lot of sad things and happy things had happen to us but somehow on that day something went terribly wrong which cause our relation to end. It hard for me say it here but it was a pain for me. Even we had broke up for weeks i still miss her, i still care her, i still love her. Even she broke my heart badly, i still love her. Im sorry to leave the story hanging but i wrote this in tears. As i wrote i keep thinking about her and it make me so wanna back to her badly. I would like to make an apologies to any viewer.
In the end, I still LOVE YOU AMY. I never regret to begin my life with you. You changed me a lot and i will never forget you.
How well do you know love. I've been searching for an answer on it. From here onwards every post i will be posting on how my love life goes. For the first thing i learn is how well you love her/he? as for the additional info, i was recently having relation problem which cause me so much pain that me heart is broken to pieces so badly. My journey of love life begin here.
16 April 2011
On this particular date, it was Rave Party carnival for flip flop beach carnival at Damai Puri. At this particular date, i first saw her was taking a group photo with her friends near the toilet. At that time, she was soaking in wet shirt and jacket hence it was a cold night. Her face was full of energy and excitement. That time, i thought i could have chance introduce myself to her but it was inappropriate way to approach her. For a moment she disappear from my sight and that time i thought i have lost my chance hence i gave up.
17 April 2011
My chance came back after found out that the person i saw on the carnival night pop in front of me. That time it was through my friend facebook profile. As soon as i knew it was her, i straight look for her facebook using my facebook account and finally i found her. Without any thought i add her as my friend. Who knows, i accidentally saw her msg wif my friend on the phone. At that time i was about to sleep so i check her phone and number and the phone number she used is the same as the phone number she post on her facebook account. When the plan comes together, i get so excited and tried to save her number. Before i went to sleep, i tried to call her but in the middle of the calling i off the phone cause i find it was weird for me to call her out of sudden. That night i went to sleep after the call.
18 April 2011
At the early morning, i tried to text her and i was shocked that she replied me after i text her. We chat the whole day non-stop. That afternoon i suddenly receive a message from her saying "don text while driving my dear". With the sentence she replied me i was shocked but i try to stay calm by replying her "sure my dear". Before i was about to go home from work, she text me asking me whether "do i have any pendrive?" that she can borrowed so i also replied her by saying "sure, of coz got lo. y? u wan to borrow kah?" then she replied me " ya, can lend me?". I replied her "y not?" then she asked when can i pass to her? So i say "can i pass to you after my badminton around 8pm at food avenue?" she then replied "ok.". At that time, i was so excited to meet her in personal. I rush to the meeting point before the time and at that time i got a friend asking me for a chat regarding business so while i was talking with my friend i keep waiting for her. After a while, she text me saying she has reached and telling me that she is waiting at the thailand food stall. I walk to the thailand food stall then i saw her sitting there with a girl then i pass her the pendrive. Due to business plan, i can sit with her and chit chat so i make my apologies to her. A few minutes later, she leave the place and text me that she need to leave cause she need to bring her other friend to buy some stuff. That night after i went home, i text her who actually was the person who follow her just now and she told me that it was her cousin. she then suddenly ask me "y? u like her har. i introduce her to u lar." With quick answer, i straight away say" no lar. i juz asking onli. its impossible for me to lyk her." then she suddenly ask me: do u like me? pls tell me the truth?" I was stun by the question that she asked me so i replied her" yes, y? duno y i suddenly got strong feeling towards u." After that we chit chat about our life.
19 April 2011
The phone conversation continues and after some persuasion she finally accept me as her boyfriend. I was full of excitement and happy. Before both of us went to sleep, she told me not to online or chatting anymore instead go sleep directly so to show that i respect her i respond to her request. It was a happy afternoon when she suddenly ask me out for a lunch so i say i'll go pick her from her working place. After picking her up from her working place, both of us went to order food but at the same time i doesn't have quite an appetite which also goes to her so both of us decided to order a bowl of porridge and share. After our lunch, i sent her to office but on the way to my car, i keep telling myself to hold her hand since we have already start our relation but i does not have enough bravery to do so i just sent her to office without any holding hands or what so ever. The moment i reached office, i text her "i so miss u even we have the chance to meet up but the time we meet up is too short" she then replied me with "lol" emoticon. After dinner, she suddenly text me that whether i wan to meet her up or not? so without any thought i say yes of coz. I went to pick her at her photo school academy. After that we went to meet her friends up at expert food court at jalan song. While waiting for her friend, i found that her head has a bit of feverish and she looks tired so i asked her are u sick? she the replied me "yes." After knowing she is sick, i went to 7 Eleven and buy some minerals for her to eat with some medicine. she keep refuse on eating medicine and keep snatched away the medicine. At that time, i was so afraid to lose her so i hug her tightly and told her how worry i am and how strong i miss u day and night but in the end she still refuse to eat the medicine so i stop asking her to eat as i manja her. After the meeting with her friend, we spend a little time at friendship park and at this moment both of us promise that we should give both of us freedom and love each other. After that, i can resist myself already by hugging her so tightly that i was afraid to lose her. That night, i told her i will definitely take care of you forever even in the next coming life. I will love you with all i had even it take me to sacrifice myself for u. Before sending her back to her academy, that is the first time that we both kiss each other. With the kiss she gave me i change my liking of her to loving her forever. This makes me i cant afford to lose her and i must treasure her will. Eventually time does not give us the opportunity to meet up too long so i send her to her school academy where she park her car there. At that night i suddenly check her facebook profile and found out she had the same birthday date as me which is 23 of june and mine was 23 december. she told me she was shocked after i told her so she went to check my profile. My feeling towards her gets more fire up and my missing her level get more higher and higher. At this moment both of our relation get more and more better. Before i went to sleep, i cant stop thinking of her and i cant stop myself cause i too miss her. This is the first time i had this kind of feeling whereby i can be so crazy about her and so miss her.
About a week later her parents know about or relation and that time she receive a call from his brother's gf saying that her parents know about our relation. At that time she just finish her photo shoot at her academy and his bro and his bro's gf would like to meet us at tarot cafe so we went there as per told. I was shocked when i saw my best friend, Jason Law a.k.a Jace Law was with her bro. Everything was like so coincidence but when i reached there her bro's gf asked me how long have u guys been together and i replied her by saying about a weeks already. The meet up was not long so i sent her back to her house. At that time, it was my first time to know where is her house and i was shocked of how near is my house and her house. Knowing that her life is an freedom life cause she is a free lance photographer i get mote excited about her cause i can get to learn more about camera from her hence i can have the chance to go different places. Day by day, i love her more and more.
22 June 2011
It was the most special day i had for her. Firstly, i had no idea of what present to give her hence i have no budget for the present. Suddenly she told me that she wanted to go to Hock Lee to buy gifts for his brother's present. As she was walking at the gift shop called Constance she saw her favourite pinky cute pig but she was sad when she look at the price so she asked me but i told her that i have no budget. At that time she was starting to get upset so with quick thought i tried to call up my boss which i work with him at his shop whether i can get my salary early and i was fill with joy that my boss approve it. While she was looking for a present i ask the sale girl to reserve for me and i told the sale girl that i come back in the evening and pay for it. When i reached her home with her brother's gf present she told me that every birthday she had is the same a boring birthday. I just smile at her and of course that just piss her off. After that, my boss called me up to collect my salary so i bring her 2nd brother and her neighbor with me to buy her present. The present was so pretty when it is wrapped with a pink color box. After buying the present i straight sent it to her home and hide the present at her 2nd brother's store room inside his room. I was lucky that she did not notice what i was doing if not it wont be a surprise anymore. Then i return to my home for a bath and a rest and suddenly she text me that she was at the same gift shop. She was complaining that the pinky cute pig she like was gone and has been purchased by other ppl and she was complaining that she just got her birthday money from her parents and wanted to buy it and its gone already. I then comfort her by saying well, maybe god doesn't want you to buy it and it is not faith to be with you. She then went home heavy hearted. Actually is was suppose to be a surprise for her but seeing her heavy heart i also feel so heart pain so i told her some hint about my gifts. I told her to look for a pink present inside the store room of her 2nd brother's room. She was shocked when she knew the pinky cute pig was inside the box and her feeling was so high and happy that she even ask me to come over during the night for her birthday celebration. Sharp 12 midnite and it was her birthday she fully open the present box. As soon she open the box she is so happy that she hug me and thank me for it. She even told me it was the most happiest birthday gives from a person. Well time doesnt give much to us so i need to get myself home before my parents worry bout me. I leave her house heavy hearted cause i miss her so much.
The McD free gift festive has arrive and she is interested in collecting all the color. The first color i bought for her is charcoal black. When the second color arrive which is blue color, i had no more budget to get for her and again i lend money from my mum just to get it for her. Im willing to collect for her with all my heart and love. The third color she bought it herself but the fifth color seems to be out of stock. I tried my best to find the color around the city by walking each McD that has in the town by asking is the color still available unfortunately still i can get it for her. I tried to ask from my friend but none of them are willing to give away too. Suddenly i thought of getting the color for during my trip to sibu hoping it would be available at the there but before that i does not have the plan to go the trip but in order to show her my love i folo my parents to sibu and hoping to get the color for her. On the second day of my trip at sibu, i went to Sanyan shopping mall and look for her favorite pinky cute pig hoping i can get for her ad finally i found it and without any thought i bought it with a cute box and wrapping. I have been looking for whole day at all the shopping mall but i cant get it but in the end i found out it. At that night, my friend brought me to McD and i was relief when i saw the color is still available at there. When i was on the way home, i went to pick her first and the moment she reached my house i asked her to open her gift. She was excited with the small cute pinky pig and the most exciting part is when she saw the color that she has not gotten. Previously the fourth color is not wad she expected that i would buy for her which is the pink color glass. That particular day, during the lunch i went to McD at city area since the other 2 McD has run out of stock. I bought the pink colour glass for her and sent it to her office. She was shocked when saw i really brought it for her. Eventually i cant get the last color for her as it finished the fastest among all the color as it was the last color. It happen to be that on the date where she and her mum was about to fly to singapore we went for lunch at airport McD. As i was waiting for the queue i saw there are still left the last color and without any thought i bought it down for her. Her feels lifted when she saw it. Her 5 days in Singapore was like hell to me. I miss her every night every hour and every second. I was hoping she could get back early.
A lot of sad things and happy things had happen to us but somehow on that day something went terribly wrong which cause our relation to end. It hard for me say it here but it was a pain for me. Even we had broke up for weeks i still miss her, i still care her, i still love her. Even she broke my heart badly, i still love her. Im sorry to leave the story hanging but i wrote this in tears. As i wrote i keep thinking about her and it make me so wanna back to her badly. I would like to make an apologies to any viewer.
In the end, I still LOVE YOU AMY. I never regret to begin my life with you. You changed me a lot and i will never forget you.
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